Suprise! Suprise!

I have my metric appilcation pin number... :)) The feeling seems overwhelming. But stop right there, you haven't even prepped for the trails completely yet... Go figure.. On the plus side, things seems to be moving along as planned.

Hello Again :)

GOD AND MY RIGHT!

BY THE WAY, TO ALL MUSLIMS: RAMADHAN MUBARAK!! MAY HIDAYAH AND RAHMAH COME OUR WAY THIS YEAR ;)

Yang Tak Bisa Berbelas Kasihan

Wahai sekelian sahabat
dan kaum kerabat!
Ke mana hilangnya
kalian semua?

Di mana mereka berada?
Saat aku menanggung dunia
di celah tulang belikatku
yang sudah terlalu rapuh
dan hampir sahaja patah.

Pada ketika bebanku terlalu berat
dan bahuku pun menyerah kalah
lalu aku jatuhlah ke tanah
dan dibasahi lumpur kemudian
ditimpa lagi dengan tangga,
tidakpun kunampak kelibat mereka.

Aduh! Sakit!
Perih dan jerihnya tidak terperi
Mengerang aku dalam kesunyian; bersendirian.
Mengetap bibir, menggigit lidah dalam kelam.

Namun, aku sedar bahawa aku
tidak mati meskipun jiwa dan
jasad cederanya parah sekali.
Tetapi akalku masih berfungsi
dan hatiku tidak luluh jua.

Oleh sebab itulah
aku perlahan-lahan berdiri semula
dan mengibas-ngibas debu
kesakitan dan habuk kepayahan.
Kuhadapkan wajah kepada-Mu, oh Tuhan!

Oleh sebab aku tidak hancur
lagi binasa akibat dugaan
yang senantisa menekan, maka
bertambah gagah dan perkasa
diriku yang kerdil ini.

Akan kuteruskan hidup ini,
Merenangi ombak gelombang hasad dengki,
Merentasi padang lahar penipuan,
Meskipun datang tohmahan demi tohmahan,
Yang tak bisa berbelas kasihan.

4/3/2010

One Malaysia...hahaha...XD

If You Feel Hot, It's Probably Because You Have A Fever

It's funny how you just keep going even when you're body is telling you to stop... Take my advice: read the signs and do so. To prevent it all from happening, take it easy once in a while. When you're relaxing make sure you RELAX. Don't think, just immerse yourself in whatever thing you're doing and forget the world for a few moments.

When you feel rested and re energised come back to reality and the rat race that is life again. Truth be told, lately, I think I have been going a little bit too fast. But then again, that's the sacrifice we make in order to get what we want; be it flying colours or a new pair of Levi's 501 jeans..XD

Thank god for weekends and painkillers though. I went to the clinic just now due to a cranium-splitting headache. The doctor told me I had a fever as well as blocked sinus cavities...Go figure..

In spite of the medication prescribed, it still takes a double prosperity burger to cure my sinuses...hahaha...must be all that black pepper dripping over the heavily drenched burger...and thank god also for McDonalds..Syukur ya Allah...

Now I'm taking the night off. I'm rereading Robert Harris' book, Imperium. It truly is a masterpiece..As for all of you people out there I wish that you enjoy your Friday night doing whatever keeps you sane..XD

I know I'll be having a blast...hahaha...per victoria meus conpes comminutus.

Sunflowers are not actually yellow...

Ever wonder why we do what we do??

Do we do it out of pure sincerity and love for others or the job??

Do we do it because we have to or were forced head first into doing it??

Or do we do it because we have nothing better to do??

Bottom line-we do it and we live with it...At least it think we do..

What happens when we can't live with what we do..?? The weak and feeble minded usually commit suicide or get committed into a mental institution...

The cautious and crafty usually work their way around it by dodging, sneaking and skulking in the dark like the worthless leeches that they are...

And the brave will usually stupidly plunge fists first into solving the problem of being unable to live by trying to set things back as they were. Such a course has but two possible outcomes. One: they emerge triumphant and live for another hundred years or they get shot in the head whilst trying to complete their mission and end up as dead as a doorknob.

As for me, I can still live myself and what I do. I haven't murdered anyone yet, either physically or intellectually. but if ever one day I reach the point where I feel like cutting my losses and moving on to the next life, I will stop in my tracks, turn back to where I came from and reinvent myself.

Hopefully, that will be enough.. It's either that or moving to a small hut on Gunung Tahan.

P/s: the title has nothing to do with this post...XD

15 Sentences About Myself....

This is actually and English assignment given to me by my teacher. But I realise that this a good way to truly get in touch with you subconscious inner self.

1. I love to read thick novels about life and its intricacies in the middle if the night.

2. Most times, my jokes are not funny and people just stare at me.

3. I make sure I finish all my work at school even if I have to stay at the library until 5 o'clock in the evening.

4. I frown most of the time, especially when I am thinking.

5. I am the 'Lord of The Sink' at home because I was the dishes every time after a meal.

6. Cycling and swimming are two sports that I love most because everything else is either too hazardous or too expensive.

7. Good food and good company make my day.

8. Star Wars and the Lord of The Rings made a big influence on my imagination as it is now much more lively and vivid.

9. I often write poetry and in my diary to express my feelings, thoughts and views.

10. These days, I hope for small, impossible things like wider roads and doing well for my SPM; not ridiculously impossible things like world peace.

11. If I had all the money in the world, I would like to build a huge manor by the sea in the Bay of Naples, Italy.

12. I am thankful for my wonderful family-especially my mother-and my dear friends in school for sticking by me, no matter what the odds may be.

13. Roman and Andalusian architecture fascinate me; as do European and Russian history.

14. I hope to be a very successful and wealthy investment banker someday and study at the London School of Economics.

15. I will be inaugurated as Head Boy on Monday, the 11Th of January 2010.

*You should all give this a try one fine day.;)*

Berserah Sahaja, Wahai Roh!!

PERGI!
PERGI!
Pergilah engkau!
Meredah lahar muntahan mentari,
menyusuri denai Bima Sakti.
Menyembunyikan dirimu yang halus
di celahan bintang dan bulan.

Dari apa yang kau lari?
Apakah yang kau takutkan
wahai roh yang bebas?
Mana mungkin kau pergi,
mana mungkin kau bersembunyi?
Di cakerawala yang tiada penghujung
pada penglihatan matamu yang sempit itu.

Padahal seluruh alam ini
di dalam tangan tuhanmu.
Manakala roh semua manusia,
bermula dari Adam hingga hari kiamat,
di dalam tangan yang sebelah lagi.

Oleh itu, wahai roh
yang khuatir lagi berdosa!
Usah lagi berdolak, berdalih.
Serahkan sahaja dirimu itu
untuk diadili kemudian dihukum,
kerana kau pasti diberkas
oleh malaikat tuhanmu itu.

Terbaik......

SHAYNE WARD- NO PROMISES

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, through Time and Time..
No promises

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.

Greetings...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

That's a start.

First off, school starts on the coming Monday. Finally it's senior year. Though when I reflect, last year's school holiday is the last one that I'll ever have for the rest of my life-since I won't be going to school no more after this. Senior year in Malaysia means one thing-SPM. This is the exam that set the course of one's life. University or community college. A good job or a back breaking one. In short-mucho, mucho importante.

Second of all, I wish all of you people out there-my followers and readers included-that all of you have a fruitful and great year. Live life. Love life. Because you never know when you're gonna kick the bucket. As for myself, I just want to get through Form Five as safely as possible and move on to LSE in one peace...XD

GOODBYE 2009!!! THE MEMORIES THAT WERE WROUGHT THEN WILL FOREVER REMAIN IN OUR HEARTS AND MINDS AND ETCHED ON TO MANY, MANY WALLS. YOU SHALL NOT BE FORGOTTEN BUT YOU MUST STILL DRIFT INTO THE PAST SO THAT THE PRESENT MAY DISSLOVE INTO THE FUTURE.

HELLO 2010!!! YOU WE WELCOME FOR BETTER OR WORSE. WHO KNOWS WHAT SECRETS, JOYS, SORROWS, VICTORIES AND DEFEATS THAT YOU HOLD? ONE THING REMAINS CERTAIN, WE SHALL STRIVE TO TRAVERS YOU SO THAT WE MAY REACH YOU'RE END AND BEGIN AGAIN.

Your Guardian Angel Video by Ken - MySpace Video by my good friend Naim, now at MRSM Kepala Batas

Your Guardian Angel Video by Ken - MySpace Video

WooHooo......

Avatar is the best movie of 2009..!!!! It has everything: love, brotherhood, war, peace, the connection between all things. It deep movie. Yet still watchable and easy to relate to.. A+++++++++++

Hollaa.....

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM TO ALL. SELAMAT MENYAMBUT AWAL MUHARRAM TO ALL MY FELLOW MUSLIMS AND MUSLIMAHS OUT THERE IN THE WIDE, WIDE WORLD.

WE MUST NOW BID FAREWELL TO 1430H AND WELCOME 1431H. THE MAJOR DIFFERENCE BEING WE DON'T STUFF OURSELVES SILLY WITH BOOZE AT MIDNIGHT ON NEW YEAR'S EVE.

INSTEAD, AFTER THE ASAR PRAYERS WE READ THE YEAR END DOA TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS FROM ALMIGHTY GOD. LATER AFTER MAGHRIB WE READ THE NEW YEAR PRAYER TO ASK ALLAH FOR A PROSPEROUS AND STABLE YEAR AHEAD OF US.

BYE BYE 1430, HELLO 1431...XD

Hands Up... The Nut or Your Brains, Buster!?

Bloooopppp....

I have read three novels so far in the span of a month and currently reading one more. They are:

1) The Romanov Prophecy by Steve Berry(read)
2) My Name Is Red by Orhan Pamuk(read)
3) The Gathering by Anne Enright(read)
4) The White Tiger by Aravind Adiga(reading)

So far this has helped to preseve my sanity.

I do recommend that you read them.

They're all deep, very deep.

Have fun XD.

Au revoir...for now XD

Living.....

So far, there are about roughly three weeks left of the school holidays.... Not much has trasnpired-that is, in the eyes of people who can't sit still. I-being perfectly capable of sitting still-find it quite eventful. Lately, even the simplest things in life feel monumetal. They in turn make me feel content, despite not being able to go to Istanbul or Jakarta with camera and diary in hand.

First of all, it is my honest opinion that New Moon sucks. This is in no way meant to hurt the gazillions of The Twilight Saga fans out there. I do understand though that by saying this, I have signed my death warrant. However, I'm not afraid of dying or mobs of crazy, love-lorn people- whose very lifeblood is now dependent on the story of Bella, Edward, Jacob and the rest of their jinbang all rolled up into one ball drenched to the bone in promises of everlasting love, stiff acting on Robert Pattinson's part and superd emotion on Kristen Stewart's, and a bit of action between werewolves and vampires -chasing after me with silver pitchforks and wooden stakes wrapped with garlic. In fact, I truely hope that Eclipse will indeed exclipse the dull experience that I had on opening night on the 26th of November.

Moving on to brighter things, I am now dragging my mother at every opportunity that life presents me, to the bookstore. By some holy miracle of Allah, she buys any novel that I ask for. This is indeed a rarity. Nonetheless, I welcome it like a jab of morfin after surgery. I have two new books in my possesion now; My Name is Red by Orhan Pamuk and The Gathering by Anne Enright. I have finished the former and am now steadfastly savouring the latter word by word, meaning by meaning.

Truth be told, my back, knees and backside really hurt. The muscles are sore. This is due to several reasons:
1. My lack of exercise
2. My sudden and fast bouts of badminton with my brother
3. Helping my teacher clean up the Text Books store room.

In simpler, lay man's terms, I am enjoying my holiday. Despite the percieved sparseness of it. Make the most of life... because you only live twice...XD

Waiting

Hmmmmmm..................................

I am waiting all right. My family and I are going to see New Moon tonight. I just realized I am wearing the same blue sweater that I wore when I saw Twilight last year. hahahahahah.... severe wardrobe upgrade detected here much..... XD

Anyway, I sure hope this super-hyped movie doesn't disappoint. New Moon has a lot to live up to..*seriously what the hell is this dungu saying??, he hasn't even read the Twilight Saga*.

I have spent the day hepling my mum out in anticipation of Hari Raya Aidiladha tomorrow. Believe me when I say peeling onions especially, shallots or bawang merah, is excruiating. I haven't cried sooo bad in a long time. Mopping is no ball either. You ungrateful ingrates should kiss your mum's feet. I mean, she really has to suffer in order to keep things in tip top shape.

On the sunny side of things though, the rendang ayam my siblings and I helped to prepare is simply to die for. In fact the process of making it is quite murdersome when you give it a thought.

To wrap up, I'd like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all. For those of you who are old enough, have a perfect set of teeth and are in the pink of health; be ready. The AJK Korban Surau will be coming for you....... Peace out yo'!!!!

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!

Hello, hello!!! Much to your joy or dismay, I am still alive and writing. I make it a point these days to only update my blog if I feel like doing it. Otherwise, I'll be doing something much more pressing.

I am happy to announce that my final exams which began on October 27th, have ended on last Wednesday, November 11th. Boy oh boy!!! Those were the longest two and half weeks of my short life sooooo far.... With the shortest paper lasting for a whole hour, to the longest which drains your brain for two and half hours, SPM format exams should be on Fear Factor. Imagine writing two essays, one between 200-250 words long and the other more than 350 words within the short span of two hours dan 15 minutes. Any person leaving the class for recess and mental reconstruction will find loss of feeling in their head and writing hand. Your fingers may be bruised slightly. Don't worry though, when you get the straight A's that you've been working sooo damn hard for, all those things go away....

The pure self satisfaction of doing well and proving to yourself that you can rise above is the best painkiller in the world, even better than morfin . LOL!!!!!

But for me and other fellow Malaysian, who are sixteen and have finished Form 4 this year, this is only our first battle against the greater war that looms in the near future. Yes that's right people, come next January we'll be in Form Five and 11 months down the road, the SPM we shall sit for. But that doesn't mean you still can't have fun every now and then. Truth be told, I ain't even studiying right now.

That would be road kill. I sure as hell want and deserve a break for now. Any hoooo.... right now I want to enjoy my short weeks of freedom. But come December 1st, I'll have to start studiying for next year and revising for this year. A word of advice: To go to form five without having a strong form 4 base would be SUICIDE!!!!!

As for this year, it is once again passing by me like and evening thunderstrom. It comes unannounced, has a whirlwind fling and then leaves abruptly with the coming dawn like a one night stand. But as always, it has been a memorable one. Bitter sweet. Always a new experience that tests me and matures me.

The best one is being the school photographer this year and deputy editor-in-chief of my school magazine, SUAMATRA. A special thanks to my three friends who have been with all the way: Fatin Nabilah Azman, Ili Nadiah Ibrahim, and Wan Syafiqah Wan Badaruddin. My Saving Angels from 4 Aset 2009.

I look forward to the return of my fellow Dons from abroad. Hopefully we can all go bowling with all our peeps and hang out at Mid Valley.

What April people are like....

Sangat aktif dan dinamik. * Cepat bertindak membuat keputusan tetapi cepat menyesal. * Sangat menarik dan pandai menjaga diri. * Punya daya mental yang sangat kuat. * Suka diberi perhatian. * Sangat diplomatik (pandai memujuk ). * Berkawan dan pandai menyelesaikan masalah orang. * Sangat berani dan tiada perasaan takut. * Suka perkara yang mencabar, pengasih, penyayang, sopan santun dan pemurah. * Emosi cepat terusik. * Cuba kawal perasaan. * Kecenderungan bersifat pendendam. * Agresif dan kelam kabut dalam membuat keputusan. * Kuat daya ingatan. * Gerak hati yang sangat kuat. * Pandai mendorong diri sendiri dan memotivasikan orang lain. * Berpenyakit disekitar kepala dan dada. * Sangat cemburu dan terlalu cemburu*

I'd say that this is largely accurate. Except for the kelam kabut part. Try it on facebook. Here's the link:-

http://apps.facebook.com/bulan-kelahir-fhihjd/?target=result&h=d9e88450a1ab2bc8a534d392b02d8411&result=2679162&nodlg=1

Raya oh Raya!!!!!

"It's 6 am and i arise to a gloomy morning. The sky is as grey as the back of a lone wolf. I take my shower with the niat: Sahaja aku mandi sunat aidilfitri kerana Allah taala. The water is excetionally cold like the waterfall that I frequent whenever I get the golden chance to come back. I make my way to the masjid with my brother and camera in tow. We arrive early and there are but a few souls about the place.


Most are making their last minute zakat fitrah payments while the rest-including my brother, camera and I-sit quietly and await the forth coming prayers. At about nine it starts and ends about an hour and a half later. On the way back I stop by at my grandfather's grave and pray for him. Later at home the house is alive with people as the younger ones neil and ask for forgiveness from the elders. In return, they are rewarded with packets filled with money. New money. So new that you can still smell the crispness as it fell of the printing line.

As the days wane, people soon make their way home and so do my family and I. The memories that we take back with us long out live the taste of ketupat and rendang that wash away after defaecating the undigested parts."

Such is my raya this year. All the more special since we went back to celebrate it in Taiping, my hometown. A beautiful place it is. Lay back atmosphere, beautiful lake gardes, ancient trees, wonderful food and people along with a hint of exceptionally heavy rain.

As ya'll can see I have a big family which translates to more fun, laughter and duit raya!!! It was truly amazing to see everyone coming together like that. It's been a while and about time such a thing happened. The best part was seeing how happy my grandmother was at the sight of her children and grandchildren under one roof.

Peel back all the glamorous layers of fireworks, food, decorations, money, and new clothes and all you have is a celebration of victory and brotherhood. That's what Aidilfitri is all about.

Now I'm back in KL and I spent the morning and afternoon today out with my friends. Going from one house to another and seeing everyone again. It was fun. I had tons of Raya cookies, kuey teow, mee kari, and bihun. I daresay I might not eat dinner tonight.

To all my friends and fellow Muslimeen:

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Eid Mubarak

Maaf Zahir & Batin

May all of you live long and prosper in times to come!